I gave in mindlessly to chocolate pb knock off Girl Scout cookies. I ate 8. That's 4 servings. I had already had a good lunch and yet, as I walked into the kitchen I had a craving for chocolate. I knew where Justin hides his cookies. I told myself that I'm probably getting my period soon and completely gave in.
Oliver saw the package and searched inside. His little frown face broke my heart. No cookies for the baby. Mommy ate them all in less than 5 minutes. Mommy hates herself. Mommy wishes she could purge, but nothing works to make me vomit.
I try so hard to follow servings sizes and meal times around the kids, but that restraint comes at the price of secret binges while shopping or while standing in the kitchen where they can't see me. I get fast food when no one is with me, maybe that's why I hate shopping alone.
