I need to get back into my awesome habit of calorie tracking, OA meetings, and exercise. I try. Every day I have the excitement and urge to be that person again. Even dropping those 30lbs gave me such confidence and my body felt better.
I am stuck in the stage where all my OA stuff sounds stupid and my son won't partner up this time and I binge eat all evening. I feel sad and let down every day. I get angry and my self talk is nasty. I am so mean to myself! And then I'm mean to my kids. It's a bad cycle.
I focus my day on all the things I cant have, pout over small portions, and am drowning.
I have a goal. I truly think it's achievable. But I sabotage myself every damn time.
