Anyway, tonight in meeting, someone said that they had found hope in the Big Book's idea that "we've tried every other way and perhaps it's time to try a new way". She said that she was a control freak and know-it-all (hmmmm, remind you of anyone? LOL), but that Logic and Reason had not worked for her. She decided to try something else. She decided to slow down and start to listen. She was listening for the small voice of the divine. She said that it did come. That it did start to make sense and that when she let go of control in her life, the good things started to come and from odd places.
I think of Petey sometimes. I hear about all the horrible things she did when she was drinking. But I look at her now and she is humble, she has the best luck, and she is surrounded by loved ones. She found a good and flexible job. She was given a newly remodeled house and recently handed a free washer and dryer. It did come with self-sacrifice. She had to walk away from her boyfriend and move to a strange place. She did lose her sister and brother to their own diseases. But she talks a lot about journaling, about listening to god, about doing what is right even if she doesn't want to. Discipline.
I need to find my HP. If not God, then simply trust that the world will be there to help me. Trust in humanity. Trust that what I need will come if I just stop trying to control it all. In light of the inauguration today, I suppose we all need that more than ever.
